My Big Brother

2006-05-27T19:31:00.000-07:00

He was never there to hold me close,
and dry my tear stained eyes.

When I walked he didn't hold my hand,
to catch my clumsy baby tries.

He never saw my first day,
All proud and dressed up smart.

holding my hand as he drove me to school,
With a swelling in his heart.

He never saw me run or fall,

excited to see him there.

or kissed my bruised knees or arms,
To show me big brothers care.

He never sat up at night,
And mopped my fevered brow.

And distracted me with bright night stars,
or explained the wonderment of how.

My big brother never helped me,
With physics, math or geography.

He never showed me right from wrong,
Or taught me things little girls don't see.

He never told me to "take that make-up off",
Or scolded the difficult teen...

Or told me to come in on time,
And avoid the unsuitable boys,
he couldn't bear to see with me.

My brother didn't take me onto his knee,
and tell me how sad he was when I cried,

He didn't tell me he'd always love me,
As he held me close to his side.

He didn't hear as I pleaded for someone,
To show and give me love.

He didn't hold my hand the night

a beaten, lonely child cried,
As she prayed to God above.

When I cried to Him,
"Where is love for me?'
And felt so all alone,

You would come to be,
but when..
If only I had known.

Now, your love transcends all time,
Though little girls change and grow,

It matters not what I never had
...because I have you now.